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Be Stupid Faster

I’m in a life phase where I’m doing a lot of things for the first time. Kia and I are remodeling our Oakland house. I’m managing projects and coordinating teams of software developers. I’m parenting a teenager. In all these cases, the stakes are high, but my levels of knowledge are low (or at least have significant gaps).

I’m finding some success in a new strategy: admitting my ignorance as quickly as possible. While I’ve never really minded “losing face” because I didn’t know something, I often took pride in trying to figure things out on my own. And sometimes I’m reluctant to bother other people with questions because I don’t want to impose.

But my life circumstances don’t have room for such delicacies. These days I’m asking, and asking aggressively. Of course I’m still going to make mistakes and take wrong turns, but I need to make as few mistakes as possible, and correct the mistakes I make quickly.

That’s my thought for the week! I’ll eventually have time for longer blog posts, but my to-do list is insane at the moment.

Life Update

  • We continue to enjoy life in our San Francisco high rise apartment. I’ve noticed I have an enhanced sense of security here. Some of that has to do with moving to a city with less gun violence, but I think most of it is the environmental psychology effect of my primate brain thinking I’m high in the trees.
  • While dance music has taken a back seat this year to everything else, Loöq Records is spinning up some new releases for December and 2022. We’ve landed a remix from Nosk, some of my favorite breakbeat producers, and I can’t wait to hear what they come up with.
  • I completed a first draft of a new novelette, “Alexandria”, a far-future archeology expedition featuring cuttlefolk, dogkin, and a godling construct of Anubis.
  • All editions of The Last Crucible are officially released. I’m so happy to have a science fiction trilogy in print (and digital, and audio book). If you haven’t yet checked out any of my Reclaimed Earth series, please consider doing so. And if you enjoy the books, you’d do me a huge favor by leaving a rating or brief review.

Did I Plagiarize Lloyd Alexander?

Recently I started rereading Lloyd Alexander‘s The Book of Three, a fantasy novel I hadn’t cracked open in roughly four decades. My daughter was giving away some books, and this was among several I rescued. As a child, I remember being fascinated and slightly disturbed by the first edition cover art, and enjoying the entire series immensely.

But reading the book again, I was astonished to realize the opening scene is between two arguing blacksmiths — that exact same way The Sky Woman (Book 1 of Reclaimed Earth) opens.

Fortunately the similarities end there — The Sky Woman has no oracular pig, or princes and kings, or epic battle between good and evil.

But I’m sure it’s not a coincidence. The Chronicles of Prydain series was my introduction to high fantasy, well before I read the Lord of the Rings. The Book of Three sat in my subconscious for decades, influencing my thinking and decisions in who-knows-how-many ways.

The stories we hear and read when we’re young shape our lives forever. I wonder what other stories are rummaging around in my subconscious, influencing my decisions.

Personal Updates

  • I’m loving living in San Francisco. It turns out we’re in the East Cut neighborhood, not South Beach. After living in the Oakland/Berkeley flats for most of my life, the vastness and scale of the architecture (the Bay Bridge, the Salesforce tower, the Ferry Building) is refreshing. Walking the Embarcadero at night is stunningly beautiful. Of course the novelty will wear off in time, but I’m enjoying it for now.
  • We’re about to start remodeling our house in Oakland. We’re in a good financial position, and we have a good team, but still the money stress is getting to me. Even modest remodels are crazy expensive. But it’s what we need to do to make the house nice and rent it out at a good price. And if/when we ever move back in, we’ll appreciate the upgrades.
  • I got my Covid booster. So now I’m J&J plus Pfizer. No side effects this time except for a day of mild tiredness and a sore arm.
  • Still taking a break from all alcohol, approaching two months. The main thing I notice is that even though my stress levels are high right now, so is my emotional resilience. Usually high stress, for me, comes with some feelings of despair and hopelessness. But lately I’ve been facing my problems energetically with a non-forced sense of optimism. I would guess at least some of that emotional shift is from not drinking, perhaps related to neuromodulatory microbiome changes. Or it could be unrelated — no way to easily test. But for the moment, I’m happier abstaining from booze entirely.

I Manifested High-Density Housing

Well, here I am in my South Beach San Francisco high-rise apartment, looking out at the Bay Bridge, feeling surprised but pleased with the situation. If you had asked me two months ago where I would be living now, I would have bet serious money that I’d still be in the Oakland house that we own and have lived in for the last twenty years, in the same historically Italian-American neighborhood where my maternal grandparents met and lived in the thirties.

And I would have lost that bet.

If you’re wondering why we moved, read my previous post. This is about how we ended up here. The literal answer is that we didn’t have time for a long housing search, and many of the high-rises had available spaces at lower-than-usual rents (still expensive, but within our range). Covid has created additional availability and emptied out San Francisco in general. Many people lived here only for work, and remote work has triggered a migration to the East Bay and up the coast in search of larger living spaces, more green space, lower rents, etc.

But there’s also a figurative, or mental-model answer to the question of why we ended up here. Recently I was describing the apartment building amenities to Spesh. He commented “You’re moving into the ringstation.” This was an astute reference to the ringstations in my Reclaimed Earth series, which Spesh has read (good friend that he is). And he’s absolutely right. There are many similarities: the density, shared facilities, complex organizational systems, and so forth.

So I’ve been thinking and writing about high-density living for years. The trend continues in my new novel Saint Arcology, which (and I don’t think this is a major spoiler), features an arcology. And also the World One luxury high-rise in Mumbai.

My subconscious was pulling me here, I’ve realized. And so far I like it. Initially I thought our apartment was the same size as our house, but it’s actually nearly half-again as big. Having not moved in a long time, I’d forgotten that a space looks bigger when your furniture is moved in, not smaller.

Maybe I was sick of weeding and gardening?

Personal Update – Controlled Chaos!

Yesterday I dismantled the music studio and moved it to Pacifica, which will be the new site for Momu and Jondi & Spesh mixing and mastering (thanks Mark!). The reason? We’re moving to San Francisco, to a high-rise apartment. The new space is pretty much the same footage as our small Oakland house, but without the luxury of two separate home offices. And of course no backyard. On the plus side, the building has a decent gym, a very nice co-working space, and many other amenities. The building management appears to be well organized. It will be a much different experience for us, with a varied assortment of pros and cons. But it’s a necessary life change.

I Stopped Drinking and Got Better at Chess

I’m taking a significant break from consuming alcohol. I like to reset every now and then, and with a 13-year-old kid who is sometimes exposed to alcohol and drug use among her peers, I thought it would be a good time to lead by example.

Overall, I’d reduced my drinking from the last time I took an extended break, so the effects have been pretty subtle. It’s possible I’m sleeping slightly better, and that my gut biome has moderately improved. But so far my body composition hasn’t changed, my stress levels feel about the same, and I haven’t noticed any major physical, emotional, or cognitive differences.

Except for one area. My evening chess games are significantly better.

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